you know how when you are stressed, adrenaline clogs up your blood stream? and makes your shoulder blade hurt quite some bit? yeah, thats whats torturing me now...


yichan and i were just talking the other day after workshop at HC...funny how the question:" what do you want to be when you grow up?" kinda refers to NOW.... it's like, we're grown up now. whatever we wanted to be when we were young should be realised just about now...

i want to be a hermit. crawl in my shell and avoid the world. it's tough to be PR all the time...

i want to be a lot of other stuff... but as i'm having a writer's block right now, i shall not list, lest i sound incoherant.


celebrated Wayeshyang and my birthday at bakerzin with nette,yichan,jiemin,joel...free flow bread! yum(:the guys were obliging enough to keep returning to the counter to toast the bread for us pampered girls(: i just realised that we sat right infront of thhe bread counter! haha. oh then we had to find a place to eat the cake. FORTUNATELY they didn't allow us to have the cake in bakerzin. humiliation avoided, phew! then we spent some time being wishy washy about the direction. and some brainwave thought of the open space outside macs...which ended up being over populated. so we went to the tables outside swensons! and the manager chased us away. more specifically, he sent his 'shou xia' to chase us away:( so we went and plonked ourselves on the floor right outside of swensons... to eat the lovely fruit cake! which the guys ate a quarter each and yc, nette and i shared a quarter(:
love this bunch of sweet crazy people!


speaking of birthdays, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY godpa! haha(: you don't look old at all!!! i really thank god for putting such a nice person like you in my life! may you have many more happy birthdays!
february is really the day of birthdays! mouses and chicken: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO! haahah(:



i bought my boots! finally! they look like poccahantas boots... yj said that... audrey said that too...hahaa(: don't care. i love them! finally! haha

i wanted to put a photo, but the bluetooth thing is warped!



maybe i should be a word-iologist when i grow up, since i'm so fascinated with words.
maybe i should be a philosophist! what exactly do they do, though? sit around and erm, daydream???
maybe i should stop thinking and start studying hard...
i'm trying, i really am! i think i'm working harder this year than last, and seriously, i give myself enough stress as it is!


every night, lists of undone stuff run through my head. it's like a mental list, that reminds me of all my 'need to do' stuff. like choir stuff, work related subject stuff, piano stuff, family stuff, church stuff. and each of them are broken down into specifics!

really, self-stress is enough. i promise that i am motivated as it is. i really really do not appreciate external stress. such as reminders of what i have not done. I KNOW what i have not done. give me time, don't harp on me. i need encouragement, not additional stress! that's not helping! i am more troubled then people know. and words appply to me the most, i'm most affected by what people say, so please please, understand my STRESS!


i will not even begin to talk about choir stuff.