Merry Christmas EVERYBODY!


Christmas bells are ringing....
YAY! christmas is here



and now it is over.....



can't wait for next year's christmas to come again....



no. correction. i can't wait for my BIRTHDAY to come... in 2 months and a few days.


enjoyed my time at victoria's house... especially laughing at other people...
eg: the wet pple , melvin the DEEP>>>


haha

anyway...
I miss school



no I don't.
haha

hey
I'm back from camp... and then i left again for pulau ubin
my muscles are hurting much
so i've decided to let my pictures speak for themselves
as they say.
a picture speaks a thousand words















This is fedupping
my pics can't be seen
ah..............
nvm
i'll try again another time

okay
so i'm here at the chevrons
I like that word.... sounds so erm.....................class.
that's besides the point'
having bbqs 3 in a row
what could possibly be better?

ok, that's not exactly right.
I can think of lotsa things that can be better.
anyway

well. carolling practice.
I was really mad
so anybody who was offended-sorry.
but still..............................
I've realized how unfeeling, stubborn and unreasonable people can be.
and I've learnt not to let them get in the way of my life
or my moods for that matter....

besides.
I am in control
and I've always been haven't I?

that's questionable, i guess

you are entitled to your own opinion
but if you don't agree with me...
stay far far away

ok
THailand mission trip
it's the BEST decision i've ever made.
the time there was brilliant...
and unimaginable
cause we had roast chicken "bbq" at 5 degree celsius....
and we stayed in like attap houses
close to nature, close to God.

Back

BACK!!! i'm back from thailand... it's been the most brilliant time....
only that i had to return to school the day after I came back.
but yeah. that's beside the point.
anyway I don't really feel like updating yet
cause i'd raTHER update Altogether you know.
so why am I saying anything?
I shld just keep quiet..


















ok that's as quiet as I can get...
Yesterday had church funfair
i guess i was having lotsa FUN 'washing cars"
hah
actually
i was doing ADMIN
really FUNNY
cause i was the only one not wet


YEAH
and i wanted to be wet



so sad



can't wait for christmas.
why can't christmas be 12 days LONG
will talk about thailand mission trip
ANOTHER TIME

bye

okok... I owe nicole ng yu wen a

PUBLIC APOLOGY

sorry dear... i guess i was more than a little pissed and jealous that you were spending more time with them than me.

really.

I didn't mean to hurt you or anything or to say that you aren't wanted by us...

it's just to expel a bit of the hurt and jealousy that has been cooped inside for too long

if you don't want to accept this, then don't

I can't force you anyhow.

but as I said then, I will always be there

that irritating little thingy in your life

whether you like it or not.

I hope it's the former.

it had better be:)

well............. another post just got deleted, and i have absolutely NO INTENTION of rewriting what I wrote TWICE.

so let's just say that my exams are over, ireceived my results, went to vivo, watched WTC ( which ROCKED) and have gottena thai giel to stay at my house.

yeah that pretty much sums up my life.

well.................... I usually have a lot of things to say.

i don't now.

cause I'm so disappointed.

super disappointed.

why don't things go the way they should?

why don't people think what they are supposed to think? ( no, nicole this sin't abt you)

wHy do misunderstandings occur?

I don't suppose there's a reason

even if there is, I don'r suppose you would tell me

why tell me anything anyway?

what's the point?

It's not like anything I say would help people?

I've seen people become disillusioned with life.

if you are. don't come near me.

I may be converted to your thinking soon.

why?

cause i've tried to help one too many disillusioned people.

and failed.

so LEAVE> ME>ALONE

if you are disillusioned.

I can't help

I won't play God

my posts disappeared!!!!
i'm so irritated I'll post ANOTHER TIME
eunice the procrastinator

HELLO... why must al posts start with a greeting? it's almost as though we are writing a LETTER for goodness sake...a nd I'm not... hm.. just a random thought
so... should I start with a good bye??
yeah... good bye to my social life
I kinda lost it... or perhaps it was stolen by the EYEs
anyone seen it? ya... tell me
you know which teachers I HATE the most?
well, they teach a particularly BORING subject.... which involves trigonometry, sets, exponential and logarithmic functions........
hope you get my drift
I'm not exactly spelling it out.
these people think that every single subject in the world is like theirs
you know, as long as you practice, you can do it
AND there's a possibility of scoring a freaking hundred marks
there's no need to memorise stuff
HEL-LO... excuse me, but that isn't gonna work with laguages and humans
why must you think that your subject is so freaking important
and eat up the rest of the so-called free- periods
that were there for us to STUDY??
it's like double period al most every week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
yikes
okays... haha... at least school time is survivable with leng leng:)... lynette, kok, qi xuan, alicia tay
kaiqi( i didn't forget you darling ego table partner) rachel tan, DIONNE, wei shan
and the rest of three ass:)
I don't think things were this fun last year
cause my class were full of kiasu nerds
who made life miserable for me by scoring so well....
that. was. bad.
but, let's not rake up the past
okay... ipromisenottopostuntilEYESareover
okay that's my oath.... I just hope I can keep it
not likely
but then again.
Oaths were meant for breaking.

HE DIED!!!!!!!!!!

officially dead, certified sting-ed ray dead
poor steve Irwin
poor Rachel and all those buckets of tears shed
let us MOURN... the loss of ...
actually I can't really decide
was he really brave and significant
or was he an idiot.............
let's not speak badly abt the dead...
I shall say he deserved a tribute..................................
for being a lovable idiot....
wweeellll..............
maybe that didn't come out quite nice.
well, let's give a final farewell to one who dared to do whatno one else dared to.
and ... may he rest in peace.
in an aligator's mouth
:) I have the last laugh

hey ya. I kinda love this skin.
cause It's so one of a kind.
okay. I'm talking rubbish
got a geog test later. then, I'm slacking off for the entire week!
decided not to blog about all that had happened last time.
let bygones be bygones
Finally realised why holidays in chines are "jia qi"
cause they're fake.
they have never existed..
holidays are ridiculous especially when half the time you find yourself back in school AGAIN
isn't that a pure waste of time?
Relax man. school isn't ever gonna run away
decidedly upset over the idiotic uptight way of SIngapore

haha... a lot of things have happened... but I haven't got time..
time and tide waits for no man
but women can wait... so I don't see why you all cannot wait :D
so ya... I'll just say everything I wanna say Another time...
in another place
another galaxy
another space
haha... I love to write rubbish
that annoys people
who aren't as SMART to decipher what the heck i'm trying to say
serve them right...
and whoever I was talking about in the previous post?
you still make me mad
I really can't stand it
for reasons I'm not disclosing
only wanping, qixuan and lynette know
they're the best in this time of stone
may be we weren't meant to be friends
cause you're making life worse for me
somehow, I think that i'm saying too much
okay
hit the books

How do i hate thee? Let me count the ways. Have you any idea what exactly you have done? Obviously not. why? cause i'm miss nice. I don't want to tell you yet, knowing that you're weak and hurting and all... but is it really necessary to play a fool with our friendship???When you're upset, i'm a shoulder for you to cry on. the three of us are. but when all is smooth-sailing... you dump us for your friends in " higher authority"... it got worse during ce. all you could do was to hang out with them, talk about it, sing about it. Have you ever wondered that we would feel left out? that you're ignoring us? just to be with other people? have you ever spared a thought for us? have you ever walked in our shoes? to have such a good friend only to lose her to the power-struggle.

okay./ maybe I don't hate you. but it sure doesn't help my stress level if you cont. I feel so USED. so misunderstood. its no joke... but if you wanna ditch us... we won't chase after you. cause we know that it's no use... it's happened before, and it's going to happen again. It's just sad that it had to Happen to us.

For all you out there who don't understand the abbrievations... don't bother. cause it was never meant for you....
I'm not regreting what i've said. cause it's what's going on in my brain. If you wanna say that I'm acting emo... go ahead. cause I'm not gonna stop you. I have my rights why shouldn't you? only....you'ld be deluding yourself.

wanna grow my hair back.....

hello.hello. I know I've been rather lazy and not updating this thing... but I have other things to do yah? like MOURNING THE LOSS OF MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yepp. i finally got it chopped. and when i say CHOPPED, i mean chopped... it's all gone! so freaking angry at the hairdresser man. who asked her to be pregnant and have mood swings, then insist on cutting my hair???!!!hmph. now I look like a cross between a hairy monkey and a nerd which is as you can expect, not very nice at all....
well, image doesn't matter, but i can't wear half the clothes in my cupboard cause it's all too feminine! help man. not that I was exactly feminine before but still...
I realize that I've got lots of regrets... and I'm trying to get rid of them... they were stupid things I did before... and I shouldn't have done them but they're done. I can't go back in time, and unless i know of someone who can, i won't regret whatever i have done. I may be sorry, but I certainly won't regret it.

okay... really gotta go
but one more thing... GOING TO SEE ACS(B) TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY..
crap la. relax i'm not seeing guys... i wanna see the swimming pool... haha
will blog abt youth sunday.................
in another million years. haha

hello.hello. I'm at school again. so that is equivalent to wasting my time, which is equivalent to BOREDOM actually, I'm having quite a lot of FUn crapping with shu ying... ( while the rest are hard at work...) guess what we found out? Rubbish is BENEFICIAL to human health! haha...this is the story... if you are not bored, then well, go find something else to do!
you see, rubbish comprises of dead matter... most of the time, unless when you throw cats down the chute... but that is besides the point. anyway, dead matter will decompose over time, whether the time is long or short doesn't actually matter.... cause when it decomposes, it becomes nutrients in the soil for Plants... and for the seeds in the soil... thus, more plants will grow and flourish... and with more plants, we have more sources of OXYGEN! yayness
So everybody, Let's go and throw more rubbish!

lame-ness.. that's a total bunch of crap man...
yepp...since I'm so bored, I guess I should just continue my thank-you-everybody thing
or maybe not... haiz

Just chatted with a friend yesterday who claims blogs are a waste of time...
to prove that they are not, I was trying to come up with some kind of argument which kinda failed... all my arguments about everything else was like passed( cause we moved on to diff topics) but I really dunno why Blogs are useful... It's a place to channel your unbriddled anger... and that's not very healthy... cause you may say things you regret...
but at the same time, you can keep in touch with everybody else, and find out whats wrong and whats right in their life... you feel more connected to the person after reading their blogs...
i sound like a detective in despair... or according to him " a smart aleck trying to act smart"
but hey.. I'm naturally smart okay? haha
hm... In life, I believe we should look at all things from different perspective... before making conclusions... logical, neutral views... not biased..
but there's always an absolute... when it comes to morals... that, we cannot compromise,.
Should I become a phycologist? Counselor? or take peoples advise and be an MP? haha
I think I won't make it as an Mp... I'm too nice X)) haha
well... pray people... that I will stick to my original convictions

I hate mondays... from today onwards there shall be no mondays... happy tuesday everyone...
-----------Garfield 2-----------------------

oops... random

we LOOK good
The darlings from Sparkers
Bad hair days...
hello.... Recognise these photos??? okay, maybe you don't

cause these pics were taken like a gazillion years ago...

Fine, in February...

Sorry i took so long to find them...

your "beloved" camera person will promise to be more

RESPONSIBLE

in the future...

haha

actually, I have more for your viewing pleasure...

but I was laughing so hard when I took them

that it turned out kinda BLURR...

so i thought I shouldn't give you all a bad time trying to stare

hm... but if any of you all feel insulted cause

of your face,

tell me, I'll crop your face out.

haha

hm... if you've read my running commentary on japan..

aargh... can't post pictures of them... but never mind...

they don't need pictures to let the world know that they are good

hm...I guess i have strong national pride

and strong continent pride

I am proud of my heritage

and for whatever reason will hope that my side of the world gets glory

and honor

Perhaps that is a fault.

hm...

must go home to think this through

But i'm also very proud of my inheritance as a child of the King

I think people who only preach Christ's love

and leave out his death are killing him all over again

Christ's death and resurrection are the essentials of the christian's belief.

Praise him.

cause he deserves it.

he does not need it from you,

cause if he wanted to,

he could make everyone believers at this instant.

he didn't.

so that you and I may experience his love

he gave us a choice.

Let us choose.

World CUp 2006!!
hahaha... I am Japanese Fanatic... cause they RULE man...(even if it was only for like 3 years during the Infamous Japanese occupation...)
Anyway, Let's not stereotype okay? If they're good, It's undeniable...okay, fine...so they may not be as good as brazil, but if everyone supports winners, where's the competition?
Come on... let's be fair... everyone goes into the competition with an equal chance of winning...
ya right... ANYWAY...
Japan's soccer skills are good. Just that they have a problem with their accuracy... that's why they have great assists, but lousy shots. THEY KEEP MISSING THE GOAL!!!
haha... but their dribbling, tackles and passes are gorgeous to look at!!! and their faces of course... hahaha
ESPECIALLY the GOALKEEPER!!! haha...

dots lah... everybody click on this: http://www.sweetestrevenge.blogspot.com/

and I wish you best wishes
cause I suffered through it, and you should too........... hahaha
I'll do the thanking later....
cause i'm tired
yepp
children's camp just ended... and i've made many many great friends, like
DESIREE NG, who gave me the above address
and, aiyah, cannot think now. update later

lalala... i'm back
OKAY, i shall talk about all those people who i need to talk about...
Basically, i'll be talking about the people i need to thank, and that includes three major people namely:
ME MYSELF and I

nononono, just kidding...
I'm not THAT egotistic RIGHT???
haha

THE CAMP COMMITTEE
Terrence... even though you didn't want any accolades, here's one for you cause you certainly deserved it... you were the best man! even though you weren't exactly in the comm, you were there every single meeting, making sure we were doing our kob and clearing after the many mistakes we committed...
(note to all: if there seems to be a lot of mistakes, it's cause this compuer's weird!)
joel... CHAIRMAN... the guy who had to take on the most roles. especially when we didn't complete our job... I admire your limitless supply of energy, and the fact that you didn't complain even when at times you had to play secretary and treasurer and file and log and... you get the picture... I thank God for you... when God chose you, he certainly made a great choiuce

Andre... commandant... okay, one of the most regular when it comes to serving God... thanks for the encouragement brother... and even though many people don't exactly get you at times... you've always tried your best to influence others...the right way... ya, don't be too caught up with the need to fit in cause you're FINE as you are... CHILL MAN...( that is a ommand not a suggestion...X)

JEANETTE! your games are FABULOUSLY FANATICAL.. haha, thanks for the effort... which I know must be a lot... even though I did get kinda upset with you for not attending meetings, I've learnt to be more TOLERANT, and ya... thanks for staying up so late in the night tochat with me even though you were already very tired, and you didn't exactly wan to listen to the topic that I was rattling on aboutX))haha... ready for next year's camp? :))

Jun, my dear, dear,dear friend... you know what I'm gonna say buddy... The most absent comm member... yet the most concious.... (what's wrong with this keyboard?) Anyway, thanks for your time and energy and that despite the fact that you're just a new child of GOD, your heart of service makes you so readily available...

and NIGEL... sorry for being the bad-tempered kid that i was... sorry, I wasn't exactly thinking... wellya... not that I do that very often...:)) hm...but still, thanks for being the best log person I knew... not that I know many...
haha gotta go...........................................

LISTEN UP GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DARYL TANG XIN YUE HAS HEREBY PROMISED NOT TO DATE OR HAVE A GIRLFRIEND UNTIL HE IS TWENTY ONE YEARS OLD!
too bad for all those crazily obsessed over him... sobs

haha, apparently, a lot of people love to see their names on other people's blog, AND lot of people want to be thanked.....

SO I SHALL DO SO, ANOTHER TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cause i'm too tired and busy now... haha
Anyway, i miss youth camp liao.....
and i'll be missing captain's ball too...
sadness...
I miss three ssssssss as well!
haha
don't say i didn't mention you all

hey.. this= continuation of my previous posts. I realised that i'm full of shortcomings... I need to change... During the camp I realised that after Christ is my savior, my life has gotta change... a 180 degrees change.... If not, it isn't a true conversion... I realised that I was still easily irritable, easily pissed off, arrogant and messy... I guess, that's not the picture of Christ that I would like to portray

Audrey wants me to type a secret message... I'm not gonna do it. I'm not that type of person. I guess i'm simple. And just not complicated. I'm really straightforward. But that makes people think i'm like a guy. Oh. who the h*** cares. I ain't gonna bother about what other people think. I ain't . But somehow it just affects me. Am I contradicting myself? I know I am.
And btw girls. I'm giving up on him totally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay? it's final. For the clueless, just ignore my past sentence.

Ya. and my piano exam went quite fine. Thanks be to GOD. who else could have pulled me through? Cause half the time I was wondering what was going on in camp. Now I know where my priorities are.
But yet..................... I supposed that service has become an altar to me. I seek to glorify myself through it. Or rather, I SEEKED. So yeah I'ma new person. Just, I need reminding too. So ya, I'd appreciate if anyone tell me if i'm becoming: proud arrogant sinful... Ya, in fact people could just point out that i shouldn't be swearing.................. hm... anyway

i guess I forgot to thank people for loving me despite my faults.
and, well, ignore my previous post. I was venting my upsetness. On friday, Audrey and me are gonna sing a song about being good friends. well it's dedicated to the following People.

Lynette, QiXuan, Dionne, Nicole, Rachel Tan, Lack, KaiQi, Steph Kok... yes, and SWEE LENG AND WEI SHAN!

The Girls, Debbie, Charlotte, elaine, claudia, Vicky, Jeanette, Audrey, Annabelle, WenXin, Angela, JUN( I almost missed you out... you didn't exactly had to know that) Chang Yen, Natalie,

Diana Untip Kel

The youth camp comm. Jeanette, Joel Terrence Jun Nigel Andre

Gerbaude: Matthew Daryl Wayne Victoria Chang Yen

The Group leaders of all the groups: Matthew Angela Joachim

You Know, I think I wrote the names of the entire youth group. But I'm really, thankful for la... for all these people, being there for me every single second I'm here.
Yayness
Hm... Pray people, that iwould live up to the commitment that I promised God I would. Pray. Cause If I mentioned your name here, it means you've played a part in my life and I want you to help me okay??? haha

And the debbie in the tag. WHICH DEBBIE ARE YOU???????????????
A bit random sorry.
haha
I'm still myself i've not changed.

Oh man... just came back from X-country today... so funny... yeah and I got my 'Red Badge Of Courage" for the unintelligent and uninformed, it means that I bled... and injured myself..blerghs...haha... I LOVE BLOOD ... oops, a BIT too random... but seriously, I kinda think blood is COOL... isn't it??? haha think i sound like a useless sadist... actually all doctos are sadists, therefore sadists are acually SMART people, and when you deduce stuff further, it means that I am SMART! yay! oops.. I have a bad habit of sidetracting. hm...

Now, on a more serious note, at least as serious as I can get, I feel kinda loner in 3/s... cos it's like I dunno how to keep my friends or something like that, or that my mouth shoots off without thinking... I think that's sad cause it makes people hate me... cause I hurt them, and yeah...So, I guess if I have really hurt you people with my careless words, sorry... and don't think I'mweird, even though I know sometimes I am... But, let me be myself. Don't let what you say or think dictate my existence... let me grow and mature in myown time... but guide me along the way...

hm... my piano exam is also like around the corner. I'm VEry SuPer SCAREd... cause I admit, I haven't exactly worked hard yet...okay, maybe I have... just a little bit... but well,the end result is up to Him... and yeah... If his plans say that i'm gonna fail to teach me not to be so arrogant, well, no amount of hard work will change his plans... But i sure pray I'ld pass...

yeah that's all for now...
eunice...the lovely personX))

hi... HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY to all the mother's out there... okay. nothing left to say...

O Lord I'm your willing servant
You know that I have been for years
I'm here in this pew every Sunday and Wednesday
I've stained it with many a tear
I've given you years of my service
I've always given my best
And I've never asked you for anything much
So Lord I deserve this request

Chorus:
Please don't send me to Africa
I don't think I've got what it takes
I'm just a man, I'm not a tarzan
Don't like lions, or rivers, or snakes
I'll serve you here in suburbia
In my comfortable middle class life
But please don't send me out in the bush
Where the natives are restless at night

I'll see that the money is gathered
I'll see that the money is sent
I'll wash and stack the communion cups
I'll tithe 11 percent
I'll volunteer for the nursery
I'll go on the youth retreat
I'll usher, I'll deacon, I'll go door to door
Just let me keep warming this seat


lalala I love this song also... by Scott Wesley Brown... real special... please read it! cause you have to grasp the meaning...sometimes we're like the guy in the song... I'll service to God is limited to what WE are comfortable to do. what we don't realize is that we're not indispensable to God. He IS God after all... he can use whoever he wants you know...hm...yes... I feel like talking more, but I kind of have to go now...
BYE!

hey all the pple who are waiting for golden words to drop out from my mouth X)) haha... which I'm sure are actually not many People....hm... yesterday Sparkers ( for all the unimformed, that's my Sunday school group...) had a wonderful discussion at our erm... lesson...yep... we were talking about the Da Vinci Code and like, bad influences that package themselves in subtle ways... yep... so I guess, we should really ask ourselves, whether if something may be legally right, but morally wrong, should we use the legal allowances as our excuse for doing stuff that doesn't glorify God or for that matter, make him pleased? ya. and the Da Vinci code... you know those pple who claimed that christians should loosen up and ya... watch it for Arts sake... or for knowledge sake.... well, I can survive very well without knowing what the book is about...well and like what Diana said, or rather what she quoted from uncle bee keong, why should we go and watch the movie, knowing that part of the money is being paid to some author who is blaspheming GOd?hmph... haha I think I just ranted... today was a crappy day. cause I had to stay back for CHOIR WEBPAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!bah. anyway, ya the class was super funny today as we watched 50 first dates... I didn't think it was really touching, but apparently, alicia tay is very easily touched and amused... haha she's so lovable la... she wants to be like the girl you know, so We said we would like knock her brains out so that she would have the same AMNESIA...haha anyway... 3s is full of crap... that's why i Love it...haha everyday, I see a big family council, with the spouses accusing each other of flirting with other people and the two dogs ditting there looking SO INNOCENT AND CUTE.... hahaha hm... i learnt that it's ONLY polite to reply people if they tagged, ya so I should...

Qing Ying: haha okay, will link you, but do you really need to like click the button FOUR tiems???? haha

Untip! yay! thanks for leaving your special touch behind... God Bless...

KaiQi: Boo back to you... I'm not scared...X))

Eileen: yeah vice president of the Melvin club... said target is not as mean now la... anyway... ya CHOIR STARTS AGAIN to torment my life... boos...and Qingying don't like you... cause I managed to get in without password... haha

Wei shan... I see your smile, so being the nice person i am, I'll smile back...X)) shan-er...haha



Okay.
I ought to stop now...
Uncle Kai Cheong and auntie Estella are coming back! yay
so are Lydia and Stephen! yay!
oh well, that's quite DUH...
anyway, yep... that's about all
but I don't really waht to go...
let me sing a song
apparently not many have heard it befor...
but it's REally Really MEANING FUL...

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

hey. Iknow ist's been like 1 month since I blogged. I"M ALIVE. okay, just in case you were wondering...actually life's been pretty restless for me, I'm sad to say...I have my darling KaiQi to accompany me in class(to Sleep) darling Kok,(doggy no.2) Lynette( whom I cannot call darling or lack will kill me...) but it's like life just goes on. Irealised that no matter how many friends you make in the year, when you like leave, you forget everything... no, maybe not, but, it's hard to strike up converations with people whom you haven't seen in a long while... which crazy guy said: absence makes the heart gorw fonder? cause it's so totally UNTRUE. Let me share a secret... wait, secrets aren't meant to be shared... haha... I feel friendless... you know, i always pray that God would grant me this special friend who is well like me, accepts me for who I am, and well, we can talk about the most sensitive stuffs... at the moment, I only have God... but I want a real person get it? hm....don't feel offended okay? I mean any one who reads this? Lynette comes close to the friend i want. so does kok. but, hm... there's just something missing.... I don't Know what.
hm... e maths test was screwed. I admit, I've not been exactly FAITHFUl in studying... but I tried. Praying that God would give me discipline and self-control...haiz. I wonder if i'm the person that God wants me to be. cause I kind of realise that I am IRRITATING myself. I wonder, if i put myself in other people's shoes, what would I think about myself? But, why must my self worth be based on what other people see me? Shouldn't I be thinking how worth I am to God, and ya... but, I wanna walk in other people's shoes...Perhaps I'm irritating cause I do stuff, or say things before I think, or filter my thoughts... I guess it's not frank, it's hurting. I really need tothink first and move this big brain of mine. So if I've offended anyone, SORRY....oh my,I just realised, I'm maturing... I guess this is the moulding process, whereby, God guides me in the right direction... If only I weren't that stubborn...

eccentric. i think that kinda describes me... don't you?lalala. oh dear. i think i'm WEIRD. what do you do when you think you're weird? you ignore yourself. but i can't...
any way, SOME people have been making themselves more and more IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
i am annoyed.
don't. touch.me.don't.talk. to. me.I.Want.you.out.of.my.life.
HELP!!!!!!!!
i think i'm just being mean.not.
any way.... oh yah. supposed to metion the 853 gang)) hahaha happy?
eunice
who rocks and rocks.
who talks nonsense
but is the most serious person you can find.

you know what? I also Don't know what.... woohoo! no Choir for the entire TWO weeks!!!!!!!!!! celebrating season... i just realised... i'm having writer's block right NOW... you know why it's Writer's block? cause you feel like your head's been BLOCkaded and nothing is diffusing through...
eunice
GONE!

i just made an interesting discovery today. I HATE WHINNY PEOPLE. if i've been whinny, or even resembled that, tell me. i'll change. but i think whinniness is AWFUL. hm... great discovery. Girl A is like studying. Girl B also. They sit next to each other.( used to) anyway, Girl B just keeps going on about the thousand and one careless mistakes that she makes in a whinny voice. blergh. when obviously she did much better in the test than girl A. won't Girl A get IRRITATED??? it's natural.
About the Taiwanese Politician who made the worst remark about Singaporeans, i suggest that we don't even bother to try and fight back. wouldn't that just prove our Stupidity. It takes a fool to know a fool. in the same way it takes... well you get the pt. Any way, a fool who keeps silent is still considered wise so any way read in between the lines cause i'd be sued for defamatory sentences if i continue elaborating. so i shan't. But it irks me that Singaporeans spend all their time-si du-ing... which means memorising stuff of the book.it not only stresses people up, it kinda makes people unable to apply what they have learned.well. i've crapped out my heart. don't ignore my words.
haha.(ps. Man. you very act Dao)
eunice rocks

It's recess time now... just completed the irritating history work... I HAD 2.4 TODAY... my life is full of regrets. wish i hadn't pigged out, wish i had practiced, or at least trained... BUt i wanna thank the LORD cause i think my asthma's gone. usually i'd be dead tired, and practically fainting after 2.4 but i DIDN't this time. thanks Rach for reminding me how much God has done for me. actually i did faint after 1.6 in primary school. but i guess i'm all over it.hm... i think i'm like way behind in my work cause i've been slacking. my dear Kq can attest to that. i've decided( when was the last time?) to BUCK UP!!! cause i realise that it's not a really good testimony. I guess i'm praying for perseverance, for commitment, for self control and discipline... and diligence. i'm trying to talk less, listen more... tllm... haha... but we all know what's gonna happen after like 2weeks, max... oh well. there goes the bell(seriously) gtg.
eunice rocks(my new surname X)
lalala
confessions of a teenage crapper

Days in the past... Days yet unseen... I lay them down before you oh Lord...
you may know... my great gran kinda just passsed away... real depressed...dunno what the future brings... gonna leave it to the lord. was quite close to her... real strong woman... courageous and stubborn... when she's gone... a part of me died. love my class mates. all so kind and understanding... ooh... rather random... ADVERTISEMENT: angora youth camp coming up. 30th may to 3rd June. pray for me... i'll need your prayers... pray for a change in A-maths teacher! want my old teacher back... cos i totally don't understand what this one is saying... i miss OAC... {gasp} did i reallly say that? oh crap... my brain is malfunctioning
better stop before a genius gets so affected by my ramblings...
moving on...
eunice

Dear Lord have your way in me... but i guess i can be real stubborn, real proud... I guess i'm reaching breaking point, when i realise that if i left my life up to me to run, it'd be in ruins. no maybe even worse than that. idon't want to think about it. ifeel like i'm real proud... and i hate myself for it... but at the same time, i don't wanna let pple know the real me. the crazy me... cause they would be scared off... the rash me... the do-everything kinda girl... that's sad ain't it? living a life that's not really your own... the meditative me... the physycological me... i really wonder why we judge pple... can't we all be good friends? But that's too naive... i know... life doesn't work that way... like the way we bitch about pple behind their back... why can't the world be a better place? it's just wishful thinking huh....i guess it all boils down to living a life with GOd ...cos without him... my life would be so useless... i need counseling... i guess:P but i know if i'm still here on earth, there must be a purpose... i just need to figure out what that purpose is... to serve him... to love him... hey. i'm being serious... oh well...
me

Pet peeves

my time on earth has been good so far... (great, that sounds so formal ugh...)but i just found out my pet peeve: LOSING STUFF. to up date, i've lost a grand total of 5 spectacles, lost my wallet about 6 times, lost my report book more than once... and well, you get the drift...hm.. realised that all these forgetfulness actually stems from lack of focusness... and a stunning lack of prioritization... sorry, i'm rather Americanized in my ways; i love the letter "Z"... guess it runs in the family... my dad's like that too... come to think of it we're very much alike. Both procrastinators, enjoy talking, very forgetful and very messy...oh well, that's my personality. i oughta be proud of it.

Cedar is a great place to be cause of all the interesting stuff that happens there...like all the "ou-ing" going on. For those who don't have the slightest clue, it's basically idolizing your snrs... especially those who look Dao...oops my teacher spotted me...
gotta go.
me

Re: Revival

Yes... I'm finally back after one long rediculous Hiatus that everyone will accuse me of... I know you guys miss me... great, such a big ego:)) lalala actually I'm not really sure what to say. That's cos I've got so many thinga That i wanna talk about... so i'm just reporting my existence to pple who are wondering whether i'm dead or alive. The Final Answer is: " I'M ALIVE!!!!" That oughta be good news RIGHT???? haha guess I'm keeping up with my crap best when I'm writing... actually I have really no subject. so this is just a waste of space... oh yes. and my class just rocks. esp the A.S.S and well, everyone... esp me..haha yeah I know. I ROck, Stone, Pebble And Sand...
Yepp that's all folks.
me...