here is eunice saying bye bye to the year 2009~!
2009 has been an altogether good year for me, apart from the stress of A levels, and the lack of studying and the guilt trips....
wait, does that make it a bad year?

EUNICE IS FACING DIFFICULTIES RIGHT NOW(:

she has no idea what to do with the VAST amount of time that she has on her hands

<

idle idle idle

and she DOES NOT feel like updating the web wide world on the nitty gritty stuff of her life

cos as you know, that would be BORING

and so she shall take a conitnued and extended l o n g break(:

till the writer's brain comes back again

the strange inert need that compels me to write!

prelims over. finally...
the torture doesn't end here though, the thought of having to face another month or tw0 of INTENSE studying before it all accumulates on the THIRD of DECEMBER is enough to make me depressed:(








shucks. i just want to take a break.
a break that goes on and on and on, and never ever stop....
















perhaps i'm in such a pensive mood cos i'm mourning the death of my mp3 player. so here's a eulogy to 'it':
'you' may not have been the best MP3 in the market, or the most attractive. neither were you the most capable or efficient one (BTW, it's creative so don't buy it!). we had our ups and downs, like when you died on me, only to be revived a few times, and promptly died soundly again. and the crack that you sprung in your face, may be evidence of either my very bad handling skills, or creative's lousy manufacturing, thats your perspective
but all said, you've served me well for 2 years.
goodbye:D

haha(: blogger looks fugly-.-
it looks like it belongs to windows NINETY-FIVE
eunice is feeling wistful today
collect all my memories and stow them away
wish i had taken lit. where concise is NOT IMPORTANT

oh well.
sit under the canopy of the garden
sip my lemonade
stare at the world go by
and laugh to myself
cos everything's alright.....



haha. oh boy, that actually sounds good!

me and licia/ and half of stupid caleb
FB GIRLS UNITED!

I suppose i've been a tad too busy.

I really miss my FB girlfriends.

moses, monkey, woof,eviltwin, korean superstar, buddyrabbit, i really really love you guys!

shucks, eunice turns mushy!

I am drowning in this ocean
someone give me a magic potion
erase erase erase
all my troubles please fly away.
math chem bio econ
out the door turn off the aircon
environmentally concious mah.

i rhyme when i'm stressed
and my stress level is like a UFO now.
unidentified. too high to record.

who says poems have to rhyme?
this is a poem and it doesn't have to
who says this is a poem in the first place?
I do, and since i'm writing it, get out of my way(:

sorry, that wasn't meant to be rude
it just happen to fit the book:/

today's econs was a hand-sacrificing occasion
my hand has sadly passed away
please tell me where to find a new one/
i'll be glad to pay!
yesterday's GP was like greek
or spanish or latin or even alien
bottom line is, it was as though it was written in code
that my brain hadn't yet developed a translation software for:/

bio was like frying my brains and my hands.
and diffusion of info out of my brain was faster than active transport in!



i sholdn't be blogging
but i am strased...my english is out of the window.
basically, for econs and bio, i said goodbye to my grammer.
cos good grammer takes too long to write/
anyway, not as though the teachers of econs and bio have good grammer themselves either;D
i hope..
haha(:



eunice is muddleheaded. hows she gonna do math?
i think i'm dead for my piano exam.
had this really annoying ttum examiner
who kept pestering me to answer my question!
never give me time to think
so scared..scared stiff
yeah...
went home and cried cos i DON"T WANT TO FAIL!
really really don't like failures.
i'm allergic to failures...
then i was reminded 'my grace is sufficient for you'

and i decided to leave my worries and my cares in God's hands cos i know theres no place safer than that.













pooooooooooooooof! eunice disappears back into her cave(:

here are lots and lots of pictures... of the lovely and beautiful EUNICE:D:D
haha(: as you can see, stress is getting into my head..turning deluded!

me and jun! at the lounge of changi village hotel!
parent's night picture1: my ister, the vain(: haha(; with nic(:

nic, me and val(:

in the TOILET! of the NTU alumni club house

i think we have a whole collection of these pictures(:

me and nic looking pretty! still in the toilet

me. DUH(:

me and nic again!

trying out the mosaic function on nic's cam! ultra cool stuff(:

another frame thingy

haha(:

and again(:

we aren't easily bored you know?

me and nic(:

i think this was her hand(:

me and nic(:

friends, forever.

since like, forever:D

me, nic, val, adelin, elaine

stupid pose number 1

stupid pose number 2!

alright, back to the books!

Eunice is Officially sick.
It says so on her MC: This person doesn't have to go to school for THREE days
I kid you not.

but being sick is no fun. esp as it's the annoying flu with no vaccine unlike the one thats of pig variety...
i'd give anything to stop my fluctuating temperature, and my random sporadic symptoms!

so basically, my temp can rise to 38.6 and plummet to 36.4 all in less than AN HOUR:/

and i can feel like throwing up so badly one moment, and then suddenly feeling so ravenous the next.
It doesn't help that i'm throwing up on an empty stomach of course.
and then i would sit down intending to do work. but all that comes out is GIBBERISH.
wheres GOD in this whole situation?

actually. whats worse is knowing that i have been taking my health for granted. perhaps that is his gentle and not so subtle reminder for me. that even if nothing else, i should be grateful for my health. and not just my health, cos he has blessed me in every way possible and just a little setback should not turn me pessimistic and morbid.


so i guess just as in everything, my being sick has a purpose too. i just need to accept it and spend time thinking about it

CTs are over.
GOODBYE WORLD!
this is my farewell to life as i know it.
as of yesterday's yesterday, I have crawled back into my cave
after an exhilarating 1yearhalf in the sunlight:D


in simple language...EUnice is retiring(TEMPORARILY) from the social scene to hit the books
i am in trouble! i have to study extremely hard.
and with the grace of GOd, I WILL!
i will study hard, make my parents proud, bring glory to GOD.
and feel accomplished myself.
i must, i can and i will(:

i want so many things! must remind myself not to be obsessed about them(:
i want a nice sports windbreaker! cos right, i realised that hoodies are so NOT comfy in exam halls-.- since it takes such a long time to get them off and on.
and they only have TWO ways of wearing: off, and on-.-
i now prefer something with a ZIP:D
and my 2 windbreakers have LOST THEIR ZIPS-.-
another reason i can't wear the both of them: one is my grand-dad's, and one is the Cedar YELLOW BUMBLE BEE one:D


i want to earn my own money too(:
i want to drive a car! no more public transport! YAY!




shush eunice. your A levels are not even OVER yet.



bye bye world, going to study for prelims!

okay. blogger is weirdddddddd. i cannot cannot cannot post my beautiful pig-tures of nj117 plus mascot cycling!
it would have been funny:(





stupid blogger:(


anyway, thanks to NJ117, SUENLI CAN NOW CYCLE! haha(:
pro, eh? maybe we should become cycling instructors or something(:
though our students will prob fall down as much as suenli!
haha(:

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW(:
so sweet! today our church celebrated YOUTH DAY for us(:
dunno how they managed to keep a secret for so long(the adults i mean)
or maybe it's just me...and my slowness(:
anyway, diana went up stage after the communion, and she was talking about youth day and stuff
then she kept glancing meaningfully at some adults
but nothing happened so she finally said :" i think SOME people should be onstage by now!"
haha, so hilarious.
then, to my shock and utter surprise, my MOTHER stood up with like 9 other adults to the stage
and they were like 'we have a song item for the youths'

SO COOL. now i know where i got my wonderful singing genes from!:D
thanks mum! hee
haha(: apparently my dad helped plan games, but since it was raining, he pang-saed his store, to go chat with other adults over the FOOD that was meant for the youths. *cough cough*
hahaha(:
nobody. seriously, nobody celebrates like ANGORA! food is simply tops(:
and we had a personalised card. except my brilliant dad forgot to bring it!
now we know where my absentmindedness came from too!
heh.this is the song they sanggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIRLS’ SONG
Looking through the window of your heartache and your pain
You're wondering if life has come and passed you by again
In a world of compromising you've just got to make a stand
Don't be getting anxious, the future's in His hands

*Chorus:
You can be beautiful, beautiful for God
You won't need society
Searching for variety
Looking for controversy
breaking with authority
You can be beautiful, beautiful, so beautiful for God

You may not have a boyfriend and you may not have a car
You may not have a fairytale romance, or travel far
But if you've got the Saviour then you've got everything
You have got the Wine of Love, and the Song of Songs to sing







take care, rest well(:

strange how the brain can remember stupid unimportant information like stories and soap operas verbatim, yet has not enough space to hold important information. like chem and where did i last put my spectacles(:

exams are over.
cue massive diffusion of chembiomathecons out into the open 'knowledge base'
if only there was active transport of it into the brain in the first place!

just want to sleep sleep and sleep some more(:


I am turning into a pig(:

It's amazing when i think about how blessed i am.
you know, when you decide to look at your blessings
and not mope about what you don't have.

i don't want to live in a screensaver world(:
where change is non existent,
and plastic smiley faces dot the landscape
cos life is where i belong
and in life, the only constant is change....

let me count my blessings, and be contented.


father's day has just passed.
i'm thankful to have not just 1, but 2 dads.
one to disciple me and one to spoil me(:
i thought of using 'discipline' instead of disciple, but i realised it has too many negative connotations to it!
but when i say 'disciple' i mean that my dad takes care of my growth
my physical, spiritual, mental and moral growth
and i am thankful that i have my dad to do that for me.

like the verse that says, a little discipline is painful at the time, but in the end...
erm. i don't exactly remember what it says(:
and bible gateway doesn't seem to be able to find it:/
but, basically, it's like that...
although it's tough to be undergoing discipline,
it is necessary and extremely important for myself and my future(:
thanks dad, for giving me discipline even when it must be hard for you to do so.

my other dad, my godpa,
is the one who spoils me(:
not just in material blessings, but also little reminders to cheer me up or make my day.






i need to study. you need to get well(:

still at sentosa bummming my ass off. simply becos sentosa is such a rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrip-off, we decided that none of the attractions were worth leaving the cosy room for. so i stayed in the whole day..
apart from the time i went to the gym and tortured myself(:
oh, and the millions of dollars we spent in the arcade.

arcades are evil stuff(: it induces expenditure, which will cause the C to increase, AE to increase. AE curve shifts up, hence since singapore is nearing full employment, although emplouyment goes up by a little bit, general price level will go up by a lot...................

okay, thats my guilt speaking!

haha(:
i just deleted the 999 unread emails(: my inbox looks CLEAN now(: it has NINE unread mails only(:
okay, here are the only pictures that can be seen by the public eye...the rest too ugly to see(:

me and my buddy jun and children's camp! haha(: they have the rest of the photos!
me and elaine in the lift-.-
it would be a nice photo if not for the horrid exposure!

the world's flattest muffin! who says i can't bake??!!

it was made from the MUFFIN mix

but we had no muffin TINs

so we kinda put the mix into a CAKE tin

it turned out too flat-.-
but it tasted extremely good!

me...,with the sun in my eyes(:

me and elaine by the sand with MY NAME ON IT!

my big and beautiful name(:

i think this picture is beautiful(:

but then again, it's ME! haha

must hit the books. must hit the books. must hit the books

people say that if you say it 3 times it will come true.....

I believe in ever after
In the promise of GOd's word
I believe the father has sent his son
to be the savior of the world




everyone's heading for mugging valley, it seems like i should too.
WHY CAN'T I????
haha(: eunice is in too deep a holiday mood to do anything.

and i hate my blogskin(the black one) i just used it cos i couldn't find anything better:/
i'm bumming at sentosa and i feel guilty, cos i really really should be mugging!

describe angora children's camp in one word: supercallifragilisticexpialidocious :D:D

HAHA. thats cos theres no one word to truely describe it.
First word that comes to mind is TIRING. but hot on it's heels comes fufilling and fun.
I wish i could note down all my thoughts and feelings now, but theres no telling when my brain will fizzle and die, after 5 days of constant 'ontheball-ness'.

i woke up at 1pm today-.-

the kids were simply adorable. my biological clock gave a little shudder of delight:D
starting from the ones that lived in the house that so graciously housed me, ruth noah leah were so entertaining. especially ruth. every single day as i turn up at their dinner table, she never failed to ask ' jiejie eunice eating with us again?'

crazy carousels fantastic ferris wheels colossal coasters roaring rockets

my 'favourite' 2 'kids': FREDERICK AND JIM. they're part of the music team, and they kept us in stitches. permanently(:


i think pictures will make more sense of my post. but they will have to wait till i have more time.

to God be the glory. I HAVE SURVIVED THE CAMP:D










get well soon(:

Proud to be, NJCHOIR(: Year2s: minus Eunice2 and DianFeng(who were busy changing out of their costumes), Wanyun and caleb (who were at VCH awaiting the results)

my fellow seniors, we've been through so much together, it feels like we've weathered quite a few wars together...and i'm sure we came out of it stronger!

NJCHOIR2009

Pre-SYF: at the LT5 stage. the place where we sweat(okay, eunice 2 says must say perspire) our life out.

now it's back to the books(:

today's MOTHER's day(:

happy mother's day(: my mum's entertaining herself by watching old videos on youtube....

haha. honestly, their music are quite good...

haha(:

so since she's distracted, i shall just thank her in these few paltry lines that may not be able to convey my heartfelt gratitude to her...

For waking up at 5 every morning just cause we have to, I love you mum

For cooking lunch even when i don't go home for it, I love you mum

For cooking dinner and keeping it warm when i reach home at 5, I love you mum

For buying me new clothes even when I don't need them, I love you mum

For grumbling and nagging about things you don't want me to do but allowing me to do so in the end cos you know how much i want it, I love you mum

For being my mum and loving me unconditionally, I love you mum

Happy mother's day

had a good mother's day message today in church... by this really sweet lady, though i'm not really sure where she's from! she talked about Jesus being the good shepherd, and how parents are their children's shepherds as well... though i'm not a parent yet (DUH). but i hope to be one someday! and i hope i will remember all these lessons and be the best mum i can be(: oh, and she played this song during the message, i think it's really meaningful, cos unconditional love is love that does not call for payment.

i guess we should do things not for the rewards, but cos we truly love(:

NO CHARGE

Now our little boy came up to his mom

In the kitchen this evenin' while she was fixin' supper

And he handed her a piece of paper he'd been writin' on

And after wipin' her hands on her apron

She read it, and this is what it said.

For mowin' the lawn, five dollars

For makin' my own bed this week, one dollar

And for goin' to the store, fifty cents

An' playin' with little brother while you went shoppin', twenty-five cents.

Takin' out the trash, one dollar

Gettin' a good report card, five dollars

And for rakin' the yard, two dollars

Total owed, fourteen seventy-five.

Well, as mom looked at him standin' there expectantly

And I could see the mem'ries flashing through her mind

And so she picked up the pen, and turnin' the paper over

This is what she wrote.

For the nine months I carried you growin' inside me, no charge

For the nights I've sat up with you

Doctored you, and prayed for you, no charge

For the time and the tears

That you've cost through the years, there's no charge

And when you add it all up

The full cost of my love is no charge.

For the nights filled with dread

And all the worries ahead, no charge

For advice and the knowledge

And the cost of your college, no charge

For the toys, food and clothes and even for wipin' your nose

There's no charge, son

And when you add it all up

The full cost of my love is, no charge.

Well, when he finished readin'

He had great big old tears in his eyes

And he looked up at her standing there and saidMama, I sure do love you

Then he took the pen,And in great big letters

He wrote PAID IN FULL.

Lord knows when you add it all upThe cost of real love is, no charge...

eunice is feeling contented(:

just like a burden's rolled off her back!

praise God, my burden's rolled away at the cross(:

but. i miss choir(:

PHEW. indeed, praise God from whom all blessings flow.
it's like one huge burden has slippied off my shoulders.
and yet...this victory is kinda bittersweet.
cos even though i'm really proud of NJchoir for getting the GWH after months of
exhausting hard work, at the same time, i wish the other PA CCAs could rejoice together with us.
it's kinda sad, that sometimes effort is not recognised, simply because of the label that awards bring. It's so simple to assume that a choir winning 'Gold With Honours' has worked harder then the choir with a 'bronze'.
so simple, so naive.
cos we all know that's not the case. i daresay each choir(just like each PA CCA) has put in equivalent effort. and the end-result, well, largely depends on the fancy of the judges...
so, it's really rather sad that simply because a lot of PA CCAs didn't get the gwh, people are gg to assume that they are not as good. it takes a really discerning person to look beyond the award and into the team's heart, their love for music and their dedication to bringing music as best as they can to the audience.


don't lose heart! because i believe that ALL of us are deserving of the GWH. who cares what others think(:


haha. my post seems as though we have just lost...but we haven't really(: the choir has won, that's true, but still, the whole situation is kinda sad, isn't it?

that said, I'm EXTREMELY PROUD of nichoir, the comm and the altos(: i think we really pulled through at the last minute, and ignoring the results, i think that each of us is a winner because we brought JUSTICE to the song...
even now, echos of the song and colourful picture we painted is still flipping through my mind...
honestly, i don't think i have EVER EVER EVER felt like this! it was strange. it was like before my eyes, although i was focusing on misslim, i was transported to 3 different 'worlds' within the 10 minutes.


the victory is so surreal. and yet, so bittersweet.
ayibobo(:

I have this recurring nightmare.
I am surrounded by rows of houses.
They all look the same to me.
It's like a ghost town.
I walk, slowly and unsteadily at first, but when i see no one, i start to walk faster.
All of a sudden, I see many heads poppin out of the windows.
They stare at me, unblinking.
I start to run.
They start to chase.
I run and I run and I run...till I have nothing left to give.
and i collapse.


the heads can be many different people.
they change with every nightmare.
But every nightmare, there is only 1 figure, repeatedly staring at me.
I'm scared, but i won't quit.
like my partner says: life is tough. but I am tougher.
let me change that statement a bit: life is tough, my GOD is tougher.
praise God from whom all things flow.
not just blessings, but nightmares as well.
cos he carries me through...




this one hasn't ended yet...

you know how when you are stressed, adrenaline clogs up your blood stream? and makes your shoulder blade hurt quite some bit? yeah, thats whats torturing me now...


yichan and i were just talking the other day after workshop at HC...funny how the question:" what do you want to be when you grow up?" kinda refers to NOW.... it's like, we're grown up now. whatever we wanted to be when we were young should be realised just about now...

i want to be a hermit. crawl in my shell and avoid the world. it's tough to be PR all the time...

i want to be a lot of other stuff... but as i'm having a writer's block right now, i shall not list, lest i sound incoherant.


celebrated Wayeshyang and my birthday at bakerzin with nette,yichan,jiemin,joel...free flow bread! yum(:the guys were obliging enough to keep returning to the counter to toast the bread for us pampered girls(: i just realised that we sat right infront of thhe bread counter! haha. oh then we had to find a place to eat the cake. FORTUNATELY they didn't allow us to have the cake in bakerzin. humiliation avoided, phew! then we spent some time being wishy washy about the direction. and some brainwave thought of the open space outside macs...which ended up being over populated. so we went to the tables outside swensons! and the manager chased us away. more specifically, he sent his 'shou xia' to chase us away:( so we went and plonked ourselves on the floor right outside of swensons... to eat the lovely fruit cake! which the guys ate a quarter each and yc, nette and i shared a quarter(:
love this bunch of sweet crazy people!


speaking of birthdays, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY godpa! haha(: you don't look old at all!!! i really thank god for putting such a nice person like you in my life! may you have many more happy birthdays!
february is really the day of birthdays! mouses and chicken: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO! haahah(:



i bought my boots! finally! they look like poccahantas boots... yj said that... audrey said that too...hahaa(: don't care. i love them! finally! haha

i wanted to put a photo, but the bluetooth thing is warped!



maybe i should be a word-iologist when i grow up, since i'm so fascinated with words.
maybe i should be a philosophist! what exactly do they do, though? sit around and erm, daydream???
maybe i should stop thinking and start studying hard...
i'm trying, i really am! i think i'm working harder this year than last, and seriously, i give myself enough stress as it is!


every night, lists of undone stuff run through my head. it's like a mental list, that reminds me of all my 'need to do' stuff. like choir stuff, work related subject stuff, piano stuff, family stuff, church stuff. and each of them are broken down into specifics!

really, self-stress is enough. i promise that i am motivated as it is. i really really do not appreciate external stress. such as reminders of what i have not done. I KNOW what i have not done. give me time, don't harp on me. i need encouragement, not additional stress! that's not helping! i am more troubled then people know. and words appply to me the most, i'm most affected by what people say, so please please, understand my STRESS!


i will not even begin to talk about choir stuff.

Now begins the long ardous task of uploading photos. as you can see...i got a bit frustrated with blogger photo uploading so i'm going to stop like in the middle of nowhere(:

FB(:
me and my 2 sisters

NJ117!!!!!!!!plus MASCOT(:

me(:

godparents and me

erm(: the same people(: in a nicer setting

cutting the cake

FB and me at the stairway(:

my sis and me eating cake

erm...cutting cake again??



THESE ARE THE BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL PRESENTS I GOT!

from my godparents... this really really pretty necklace from SK(:

SEE HOW IT SHINES FOR ME???

from suenli and ness-.-

from michael...our TRUCE. haha. which kinda ended yesterday-.-

we decided not to argue for the day(:

erm...i think one day still can lah. more than that cannot already!

FROM FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!who demanded a really really big expression of wow from me but didn't get it:D i was really tired lah! sorry(: can i say the WOW now??? haha

according to clarissa the mouse who doesn't have a brain... dotty means mentally irregular-.-

and scatterbrain is to remind me of how much i need reminders(:

right. nice to know that it's so easy to find adjectives to describe me!!!

hahaa(: now i have FOUR little miss shirts(: i must be schizophrenic(:

from allicia my darling friend(: chocolates for someone as SWEET AS ME! haha

from debbie and jun! BUDDIES! thanks for the lovely adorable pencil box with the earrings inside(: can you see the earrings? can you, can you?

haha. of course not(: they're inside the box mah(:






this year, my fettish for notebooks is satisfied...partially with THREE notebooks on my birthday!

the white one is from nana, the black SPARKLY one is from QX. i CANNOT believe that she actually remembered that I LOVE sparkly things and things that glitter(:

apart from notebooks lah(:

from nette pat and yang(: according to them... this work of art on the notebook they gave me went through an episode frought with adventure and distress... just in case the kino people are reading this, though why they would i really dunno, but just in case...i shan't write it down here(:





the 3 notebooks! pretty things!

yupps(: thanks a bunch to my parents for preparing the BBQ for me as well.

and for my 3 heroes: lama,michael,and dianfeng for doing the menial job that NOBODY wanted to do: COOK! haha

even though the charcoal was like weird and there were momentarary lapses in the foood supply cos it went into certain people's stomachs...

thanks SO MUCH!

though you guys could have eaten more:D

really sorry to those who came and i had no time to entertain you!

i was so mentally exhausted at the end of the whole thing... my brain was still like running from group to group!

shall blog seriously another day

for now, it's back to my books(: