Life is butter, melon, cauliflower

i wonder what it's like to have amnesia.
it's almost like getting a 2nd go at life, you know?
it's like you wake up one day with the first half of your life erased from your memory.
you can start all over again
oh sure, there would be pain and all.
but if you're amnesaic, you probably won't even realise.

but then again, why would I even WANT to be amnesaic?
i love my life. I'm glad that this is where God has put me.
and I couldn't have asked for a better location.
or better situation

sheesh.maths test tomorrow. and contrary to popular belief that Nj is a mugger school who can't take jokes, let's get this straight people,
we're FAR from mugger.
serious. i can count on my fingers the number of people in my class who have studied for the test.
actually, i don't think i can count them. it's probably ZERO.
ohh well, maybe it's just my class.
actually, it IS just my class

woMAN, i just realised that i've been contradicting myself for the last 2 statements.

do i really care? Nooooo:)
my life must be pretty sad if i have to answer my own questions!
oh well. the things that are drving me up the wall now
are vans, cars and lorries.
except that they have suction pads on their wheels so they can balance on the walls:)

today was a fun day at school.
laughed NON-stop with sonia, yunjie, and evil twin
actually, it was more like evil twin and i laughing at our stupid jokes
and sonia and yunns laughing at us...
man, chem lectures are so fun.
guess what we learnt today?
how to know when is the right time to copy down whats on the screen!
the hall gets deathly quiet.

oh well.
i just noticed this strange phenomenom.

it's just that choir peeps have this strange sorta affinity for each other_._
(btw, that's a person, lying down and giving the diao face)
it's like we can congregate in the middle of no where!
like in the canteen in the walkway
man, we're way too bonded
we can sense each other from miles.
it's like we have some radar-thing-a-ma-ling
that senses out the choir people.

and we just tend to cheer each other up
just like that.


that doesn'tmean i don't love my class, does it?
cos i do:D

i love how yunn and nia can tahan my unglamness and rubbishness
maybe it's cos i provide them entertainment.
oh well.
i realised that i've said a lot ofoh wells.
and i realised that if i don't stop blogging, i'll never get my PI done...

Can you find my brain for me? i seem to have lost it

it's all over...and i don't know if i should be happy or sad, disappointed or whatever

ELAINE YIP, STOP LOOKING OVER MY SHOULDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

right, whatever.
anyway, Cantab is over, and i suppose it wasn't an excellent performance, but i know we put in our best, and we all enjoyed ourselves. at least i did. and the seniors are now all gone.
my brain is not working today. so whatever nice touching little things i wanted to say, i can't express them:)
and that's all because of stupid Chem VA which lasted until 9.30:( i've never stayed in school till so late.then when it was all over, i reached home like at 11pm. by the time i got down to studying for econs, i was so dead tired, but i forced myself awake. anyway, i slept at like 1 plus am.

i was SO STONED. that i only woke up at like 7am. LATE, duh. but basically this is what went thru my mind when my sister came blazing into my room shouting:"it's 7am! it's 7am! we're gonna be late!!!"

eunice's brain" ehhh, 7 am? what has that got to do with me? wait. what day is today? saturday? wait but didn't i have to study for econs test? so that means today i have econs which =to school. is today thursday? then i can leave at 730 right? wait. don't i have PE? that means today is wednesday, which means i have to report at 730, which means..."

and then this is part where i shout verbally:

eunice's mouth:" I'm LATE! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I"m LATE! AHHHHHHHHH!"

it took me 5 whole minutes to realise that i was going to be late. and now you know who usually wakes the family up cos my sister was late too.

so i just chiong-ed out of the house and went on the train. I shared the train with working adults who can be the most inconsiderate species of people on earth...
then i reached school and was late for econs lecture, so weighing the marginal cost and benefits, i decided that it was better not to go:)
heh! then i talked to chicken, eugenia and jaime:) what we talked about is for us to know and you to find out!


i'll miss the seniors. every last one of them.

CANTABILE 22ND

CHIONG CAUSE CANTAB'S COMING CHOIR!
i just realised that my previous few posts were rather depressing to read. rather unlike me.
but then again, a person deserves to have a few downs in their life, right?
whats important is how a person bounces back, and how she pulls through.
and with whose help she pulls through.

anyway, Cantab is like TOMORROW, and i pray that we all sing our best.
and that we all put in our heart and soul.
and that it will be a fullhouse.
and that the audience will love it.
cause that's who it's for right? the audience...
and then again,
maybe it's for us:)

haha, we were playing around with aliterations the other day at the choir store:)
or to be more specific, the whiteboard at the choir store:)
and this is what me,nia,sixuan,jaja, and yongjian came up with
fyi, the ones in brackets were thought of by the jaja the meanie.
haha, altos are nice people okay?

(surprisingly) Sopranos (sometimes) Sing So Sweetly
(actually) Altos Are Always Awesome
(tentatively) TenorsThink They'll Triumph (eugene says it should be: Tenors Think They're Tokgong. or however you spell that word)
(basically) Bassos Beat Boys Butts.

haha. i realised that the basses statement is A BIT out of point. and it doesn't make any sense.
but thats cos aliteration is tough work
thats why i'm so proud of myself for coming up with:

CHOIR CHIONG CAUSE CANTAB'S COMING, CAN?

i rule.
muahahahahaha!



i love fruitbasket.
i love shi-er-sheng-xiao.
wait. they're the same people.
muahahahahahahahahhahaha
horse,goat,mouse,dragon,cow,pig,dog,monkey,snake,rabbit,chicken,tiger
that's in random order.
cause i'm kantang. so i'm not sure of the right order.
i'm always secretly amazed at how when some people in shi-er-sheng-xiao want to do head-count when we go out(ehm, don't even ask why we need a head count)
they'll go according to the 12 shengxiao thing.
i always get stuck at mouse.
which happens to be the first one on the list i think.
man, i need to get in touch with my roots...


hahahahhaha
eunice is back to normal:)

eunice is not emo:)she just had a randomly RARE quiet moment.which she exploited to think thru certain things i officially declare my hatred for PW as an examinable subject why should they need to TEST us on how well our social and analytical skills are? it don't make any sense.PW is fun and all, but all joy is removed because of the need to hand in papers and the reminder that we're graded on how we perform.Embarking on projects shouldn't be so tough I say.i mean, if you've got a passion for something, then DO IT! don't be restricted by the many laws that the education system has in place. how do they expect entrepreneurs to be borned out of such a system?pfffffft.

i love NJchoir. i have no idea what i'd do if i wasn't in choir. Jc life is so tough, sometimes i feel like just giving up. i know i'm spending too much time in choir.and i know i'm neglecting a lot of stuff. these are sacrifices which i know i'm making, but i'm not sure if all this is worth the sacrifice. i love being in choir cos after a long day at school, being surrounded by people who love the same things as i do is just so heart-warming. and then i stop and think, there are some things we can never do together, cos not all share the same love for God that i and some others have. and then i'll feel guilty. cos i feel that i haven't exactly lived life the way God wants me to live.
i feel like i'm neglecting a lot of things. things that shouldn't be neglected. this is the price i'm paying. but for what? is it really worth it? i'm sacrificing my family, my friends, my spiritual life, my studies (to a certain extent) and all for what?
give me a bit more time and maybe i'll work this out.i guess balance is the key. i need to balance. i need to put in 100 percent for everything, and i guess even the best balancing acts may not take me that far. then what?


man, i am serious. maybe i'm just stressed out. I love the weekends cos i have one whole day to catch up on my work and i'll feel very accomplished!cos i'll look at my gorgeous black notebook and go,"done, done, done, check, check" woohoo!it's like all done:)
i'm stressed.i'm going mental.
but i like pressure.ooh. yes i do.
yeah right.who are you fooling?


AHHH! this is driving me nuts. i'm turning schzophrenic.
MAN!WO-MAN!
save me from myself.i can't bear to watch myself self-destruct.
i'm going to ruin myself...
i'm so disappointed in me. wheres eunice? the one who had the POWER??
i need to be plugged in to God's power.i'm losing grip. and i hate it. i want to be in control of my life. but it.just.keeps.slipping.away.
i guess i can't be in control all the time. maybe i should just live and let live.





i'm not making any sense am I?













AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

was supposed to update, cos my evil twin wants some entertainment...
but was caught up doing PwPi research...which wasn't very fufilling at all
nia and yunjie claim that i left my brain and my common sense at home cos i kept being muddled today. yeah. i just muddle wuddled my way thru today.must be the flu. my nose is stuffed like a choked toilet bowl and my table looks like a snowstorm has just been thru with it. It's stormed with toilet paper.
i miss italy. oh yes i do.i miss the fun.the CAREfreeness
i miss cedar too.
i wanna live life all over again.
i wanna get a 2nd chance to do everything better.
either that, or it's my flu talking.