all that i once knew is disintegrating

i don't know what is happening now.
everything is so confusing.
i wake up one morning and everything was fine and dandy.
and the next moment, it's not.

xiaolongnu says i need to wake up.

i thought...that everyone was nice.
i guess i'm wrong
i thought...that everyone was frank and no one had hidden intentions
i guess i'm wrong
i thought.. that everyone was sincere
i guess i'm wrong
i thought...that nothing would come in between our friendship
i guess i'm wrong
i thought...i could believe everyone and take what they say at face value
i guess i'm wrong


i hate being wrong.ihate feeling suspicious of everyone.
to have so many things that i've always believed in thrown back in my face
and proven otherwise.

i feel like the world i once knew has becomed a stranger.
the people i thought i could trust, just fade away

maybe you are the only one i can trust.
the only unchanging God in my life.
i'll hold on to your inchanging love.
you are the strength of my heart.
and my portion forever.
hide me under your wings.
cover me with your mighty hands
Lord i'm weak. but in you, i can be strong.