be there or be square

went to covenant EFC today.
okay. now i know what is meant by a church with life.
but it doesn't mean that i want to move over there
nor do i say that i prefer it
nor do i actually like it
i just mean, hey. why can't angora be like that?
smal churches and big churches, whats the diff if we all love GOd?
okay. other than the economies of scale factor.
on the downside, i felt the service was rather commercial.
like, if you didn't know it was a church service before you entered the sanctuary
you probably thought you were attending a free concert

i mean, theres totally a place to dance and sing and everything,
but FIVE worship leaders?
thats a bit exagerrating. no?

oh well. but the message was not good, it was GOD.
i felt really blessed.
BIG GOD SMALL PROBLEMS

after that i went to HC voices concert
which simply took my breath away
now i know how far njchoir is from being a professional choir
it was so touching, like it reaches all the way done into the soul
that stirring feeling, that just makes you sway along to the music
it made me think. now, THAT's music!
haha. but there were some funny moments too
like when misslim all of a sudden stopped.
and didn't conduct.
HAHA. all of us were like. oh man.
she must be lost!
but then, she suddenly lifted her hand and proceeded conducting,
even without batting an eyelid
now, THAT's pro conducting!

but it wasn't really her fault. one needs to consider what stress shes under
especially since acsib choir concert was like on friday?

after that, went to eat like SUPER EARLY DINNER!
never ate dinner at 5 before
oh well. theres a first time for everything.
met the grand-grand seniors there
like manenek:)
i think she was utterly embarrassed by sonia, clarissa and my antics

as you can tell, my brain is not really working
and my thoughts are not flowing in a line.
in fact, the past few sentences are beginning to sound like a
falsely happy and fakely funny ramblings
of someone who is neither happy, nor in the mood for funny stuff.

you know what?
actually, i don't really get that last paragraph that i wrote
because i'm perfectly fine!

i think.
that i'm schizophrenic
i need to be banned from school! the school should quarrantine me
otherwise, others would get my disease!
okay. thats just an excuse
but i'm working under stress now
so...
i shall stop before your brains start to muddle at my words


ahhhh the pain of being an intellectual
is that one is seldom understood.